/Appointment with Death

Or rendezvous, if you please. And while searching
that reference I forgot--oh, yes: my original intention:

A few years ago I was (only mildly) crazy,
and spent all my time doing nothing but
playing video games and adding my name
to mailing lists in hopes of becoming rich.
I also had symptoms and doctors. There 
were tests and procedures to keep track
of, and they interfered with my self-
administered anti-anxiety treatments. 

I began by being early for appointments 
and became so troubled that I lost track
of the day and showed up at the wrong 
office once, a day early. Why I feel need, now,
to recount this may or not be worth exploring, 
but no--the days of suicide are long past.

April 16

Definition: Character

Clarice Starling has been subsumed by Jody Foster,
who somewhere learned how southern and mountain differ.
Any East Tennessee drama teacher knows a fool can fake
the mountain drawl by locking down her lower jaw. That
doesn't fix Scarlett O'Hara, bias of any sort, chronic
unemployment, or the skin and teeth of inherited poverty,
but verisimilitude is an inch in the right direction. You
see: I was taught you could beat the past with increments.
Now, though, I'm old. My spotted skin and all my flaws
sashay across the stage sporting one-piece swimsuits, spike
heels, and satin labels: Miz Bigot, Miz Hypocrite, Old Miz
You Can't Get There From Here 1947. Still I sigh at new
SUVs bearing heirloom Confederate flags and flaking Trump
decals, knowing all reaction's a tale about chicken v egg.

for NaPo 4/1

Chord and Discord Sat on a Fence

A man who could translate Water to Wind
met a woman who only spoke Fire.
He cooled her. She sparked him.
He fanned, she inflamed: desire
with no earthly understanding.
But they slept in each other's arms
like two lullabies, demanding
nothing, content to share dreams.
The Fortune Deck fool is born again
with every breath taken and given.
A body trusts that air, sun and rain
will continue. It only knows living,
and life will or must derange.
It’s reason that's  strange.