/Appointment with Death
Or rendezvous, if you please. And while searching
that reference I forgot--oh, yes: my original intention:
A few years ago I was (only mildly) crazy,
and spent all my time doing nothing but
playing video games and adding my name
to mailing lists in hopes of becoming rich.
I also had symptoms and doctors. There
were tests and procedures to keep track
of, and they interfered with my self-
administered anti-anxiety treatments.
I began by being early for appointments
and became so troubled that I lost track
of the day and showed up at the wrong
office once, a day early. Why I feel need, now,
to recount this may or not be worth exploring,
but no--the days of suicide are long past.